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The Paranoid Writer

When Life Gets in the Way

The Light At The End Of The Tunnel

I can see the light at the end of the tunnel for my first draft. Deadline, deadline. I am thinking that Monday the rough draft will be done, and then I can start editing. Once I have something concrete, then I can start ripping it apart. I really want a plot-driven story this time and a way to surprise readers–a slap in the place that they didn’t see coming, but all the strings lead to it. I know what to do because I wrote it yesterday. I just have to figure out where to place it, but, of course, I already know.

Keep writing.

January 22nd, 2010 Posted by | Uncategorized | no comments

Working, Working, Working

I am still working on my first draft and have just added a bloody scene that has taken the first draft into a deeper level. The plot is still the same, and the direction is still the same, but the threads are running closer together and meeting. That’s good. You want your lines, your threads, to stay together and to eventually meet. That is what creates the moment in readers when they say, “Oh, so wonder. I get it now.” It creates symbolism.

Still waiting for two agents that have my first book.

January 20th, 2010 Posted by | Uncategorized | no comments

Roller Coaster

So, here I am in the pit of self-doubt and loathing about my first book, and then I receive a request from another agent for the full manuscript. How long will this ride last?

I sent it in and will play the waiting game again. However, the difference this time is that I am now focused on Book #2 and knocking that manuscript out, first draft. The characters are starting to talk in my head again, and I need to let them out.

Out, out, damn it.

January 14th, 2010 Posted by | Uncategorized | no comments

What To Do

I am at a point where I can either make changes, which I don’t know are warranted, on my first book and send it out or keep working on the second book. In a perfect world, I would like to make changes on the first one while under contract. I’ll think I will stick to my guns and work on my second book, and those changes that the agents suggest I will apply to my second book.

It’s not easy being a writer. It’s a profession that is met with rejection over and over. At this point, I am growing very tired of the rejection.

January 13th, 2010 Posted by | Uncategorized | no comments

Working Editors

Harry and Hagrid enjoying the journey and taking a break from editing their mom’s manuscript.

January 12th, 2010 Posted by | Uncategorized | no comments

The Journey is the Journey

Famous saying: “The destination isn’t the journey–the journey is the journey.” Yeah, yeah. I got it as I start back up on my manuscript. Some time off and five pounds on, and it’s time to get busy again. It’s time to send out queries again, follow-up on agents who hold my manuscript hostage, and finally finish up the first draft of the second manuscript.

Ok. The journey is the journey, and I will live in the present and enjoy–as much as a paranoid and frustrated writer can.

January 11th, 2010 Posted by | Uncategorized | no comments

Happy New Year


It’s new year, and my New Year’s resolution is to live in the present and slow down. As a writer, that’s hard to do because self-imposed deadlines hang over your head and anxiety and depression rule. Alas, it’s a new year and a time of renewal. Let’s see what 2010 brings and take it one day at a time.

January 1st, 2010 Posted by | Uncategorized | no comments